I give up!

Okay, so this whole NaNoWriMo thing is not working out. Seriously. It's just this huge spew of verbal diarrhea. Not even 1/4 done and I hate my characters, hate my plot, hate the whole fucking thing. And I can't stay away from the forums. Yeah, I'm an addict.

Idk, I just don't think I'm ready for a large-scale project like that yet. I'll stick with my short stories and poetry for awhile yet, maybe actually finish that 100-theme project by New Years, that would be cool. And maybe I'll go back to the "novel" another day.

I do think it would've made a good story, but I honestly can't bear to rush through it like that. My writing is always a painstaking process, even for school. I've never been able to go the whole write-a-rough-draft-and-revise route; I edit as I go, and I have to get it damn near perfect or I can't move on. This means that pretty much anything I write is a one-draft project, as there's very little revising involved, but it also means there's no way I'm finishing something of this magnitude in a month. Not a fucking chance.

Moving on.....I'm ill. Meh. My mother bribed me to get a flu shot by promising me tickets to see Bob Seger in Cincinatti later this month, so yesterday morning I went and got one. I woke up this morning with a sore throat, developed a headache around supper time, and now my nose is running. Dammit, I don't get sick, I don't need a shot to fucking MAKE me sick!