Monday, December 19, 2005

more randomness

The Colts lost!!!! D: I cried for hours....okay, not really, but still, it IS sad....

So yeah, there's this new guy at work, Stephen, and I just worked with him for the first time today, and he's kinda creepy.....he's like, old, well not OLD, but older than your average fast-food employee, I think he said he was 27....but anyway, he never TALKS.....anyway, I think he's creepy. But he was nothing but nice today, so I don't have anything tangible against him. Whatever.

Also work-related, some guy got totally pissed at me today because I made somebody else's sandwich first, who was apparently in line after was totally an accident, the other guy's sandwich just came out of the toaster oven and happened to get put on the counter before his, so I finished it first, and the guy made a big scene, and I was all apologizing and being all humble and crap, and god I just wanted to jump over the counter and smack the shit out of him....but anyway, I digress. It was minor. He left, and the guy behind him made some comment about what an asshole he had been, and I felt better.

On a more positive note, I had a conversation today with somebody with whom a conversation was desperately needed....I think we're on speaking terms again....which is good.....sorry, long story, lots of drama you lovely peoples really don't need to hear about, but long story short, I feel SO much better now.

Meanwhile, back at the ranch....I surreptitiously turned the heat on in my bedroom. Now if I keep the door closed, my mother need never know, and I can once more sleep in my own bed....tee-hee....

Also on the home front, the presents are starting to pile up under the tree! I was afraid I wasn't going to get anything much this year, money being what it is (and isn't) and all, but there are packages (at least one each) at both mum's and dad's with my name on them already, so I'm happy! And I've got all my presents bought and distributed, so I feel good! I love giving out Christmas presents!

Two final exams down, two more to go----after tomorrow, I'm free til January, woo!!! Wish me luck!

Alrighty, well that's all I can think of just now. I'm off to bed---good night, all!

Monday, December 12, 2005

thrills, chills, and....heels!

So, I just had a totally rockin' weekend. Oh yes. The joy. The pain. The wonder of it all. Where to begin....

Well Friday night was pretty standard; I didn't have to work (woo!) so I went to my dad's and we stayed up late watching movies and eating pizza. yum-ness.

Saturday, I hauled my ass out of bed at 8:30 (that's EARLY for me on a Saturday morning, especially considering when I went to bed Friday night) because my mummy dearest said she wanted me to help her go over the schedule for the next *unspecified amount of time*.....she just wanted me there to run and fetch things for her, 'cause she has a broken leg and doesn't like to get up more than she has to---quite understandable. But anyway, when I got there, she was like, "I'm paying bills, go away." (in so many words.) So instead I went SHOE SHOPPING!!! yeah! Because I needed a pair of shoes for the dance that evening, see, and so Goodwill had absolutely nothing in my size, so I went to Shoe Show and found the cutest pair of black heels---I usually don't get excited about shopping or shoes, but you have to understand, these were the height of cute-ness.

So then I had to go to work, 11-3, which I did, and it was pretty standard. Kind of slow, whatever. After that I went and got my lil' bro and took him SLEDDING!!! The end-all, be-all of winter fun-ness. Oh yes. It was glorious. Except for when I went over that one bump and fell off the sled and went skidding face first into snow-filled hay....yeah that kinda hurt....I've got bruises!....but all-in-all, extremely awesome in every way.

Then after THAT, I went home to get ready for the dance, also known as the Winter Holiday Semi-Formal. woo. I went out for dinner with a bunch of people first, which was great fun, and then there was the DANCE. The DJ was pretty good, and I danced....and I danced....and I danced.....I think I sat out maybe three songs the whole night. I fast-danced during a slow song. It doesn't get better than that. And come on, I was wearing a hot-pink feather boa---there was no way I was going to NOT have fun!!!

Then I went home and fell into bed for a measly few hours' sleep, after which I woke up, ate some cold pizza, watched some football (Colts are now 13-0, WOO!!!) and read Hamlet. Joyous.

I'm still aching from Saturday. It was awesome. Woo!!!

Monday, November 28, 2005

the good, the bad, and the totally random


1. OMFG I GOT ACCEPTED TO A COLLEGE!!!! Like, a real, actual college. With a SCHOLARSHIP, no less. WOO!!!! I am like, totally FREAKING OUT!!!!! I've been randomly hugging people (and cats) all day. I even hugged my little brother. That can be lethal.

2. My papi and I did our Christmas decorating at his house today. It was great fun. We now have our lovely lights all strung about the living room and our prettiful little tree to put gifts under. Yay!

3. I got a new avatar!!! Hooray!!! It rocks my freaking socks!


1. My mother is going crazy. Let me explain: As I may have mentioned before, my relatives need to STOP EFFING DYING!!!!!! We went to ANOTHER funeral on Friday, this one for my great-grandma. That makes three this year---my grandpa, my aunt, and now my great-grandma---and these were all CLOSE relatives. My mummy dear has begun having nasty reactions to her millions of prescription medications. We're nose-diving into debt, and add to that next year I'll be off to some expensive college. She and John broke up, but he's still hanging around and I have no effing idea what's going on there, but whatever it is, I'm betting it's stressful. But yeah, all that plus she's a psycho-OCD-totally uptight person to begin with, and I think she's finally going over the edge. She came home the other night and got quite tipsy; my mummy never drinks that much. I found a cigarette in her car. A CIGARETTE. My mother is a respiratory therapist. She is the last person on the face of the planet who would ever smoke. And yet there it was. She's going to this shrink person, but I really don't see that it's helping. She's starting to scare me. Ack.

2. I am never putting up Christmas decorations with my mummy again. She is so BOSSY! ARGH! I know, I know, I should be nice to her, seeing as how I think she's losing her marbles, but she was having a GOOD day today, so I thought we could get along long enough to get the effing Christmas tree put up---yeah right. We spent 2.5 hours just trying to arrange the furniture so we had a place to put it. I could've done it in ten minutes, had it been just me, but NO, we can't decide where to put stuff and THEN move it, we have to move it six dozen times to see how it all looks first---AAARRRGGHHH!!! Long story short, the tree is up but still bare, and I'm not sure my mummy dearest and I are on speaking terms just now.


1. Mi papi and I went out for lunch and had Mexican and it was delicious.

2. The weather is insane. First it's thirty degrees and all snowy and winter-esque, and then it's fifty degrees and rainy. WTF?!!?! Stupid weather.

3. The Bears beat Tampa Bay, but it was really kind of sad, not a very good game. But hey, to (severely) paraphrase our good friend Dr. Seuss, a *win* is a *win* no matter how small!

Alrighty well I must be off to beddy-bye now. Later!

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Greetings from the Ice Cave.

Hello, my lovely friends, and how are you? I'll tell you how I am, I'm COLD!!!!!'s snowing today (as Brock mentioned in his journal--> and yes it's beautiful and loverly and all such things (though it would be more so if it was actually sticking), but along with the snow comes the COLD. Which wouldn't be so much of a problem, except my mother has developed a sudden aversion to heating. Something to do with the electric bill. Which I can kind of understand, I guess, but what I think SHE needs to understand is the fact that I am sitting here typing on the computer WITH GLOVES ON. Yes. I am not even kidding. I am wearing big fluffy slippers and a hooded sweatshirt (hood up) and GLOVES, plus my uber-warm flannel jammies. When I go to bed, I wear all these things, and on my bed are the usual sheet and comforter, plus an afghan and two thick fluffy blankets that aren't usually there. Now for most people, this is an indicator that it's time to turn the heat up a notch or two. My mother, it seems, is not most people. basement has turned from The Refrigerator to The Ice Cave. Joyous.

Oy....alrighty, well in other news, I managed to switch hours with another girl at work so I can go see all my lovely pallies in the musical Saturday night---yay!

And I really oughta be working on my short story for Creative Writing instead of this, so I think I'll go now. Later!

Saturday, November 12, 2005

random thoughts

Feeling a bit disjointed today, but here goes....

So yeah, our Subway got robbed a couple weeks ago---BURGLARIZED, sorry....apparently there is a difference. But yeah, it was after close so there was nobody there so that was good, but anyway the state police are investigating and all, and they're going around interviewing everybody to see what's up. So the cop came to my house the other morning to interview me, and I didn't work at all that day, and I have no ideas on it one way or the other, and he's asking if this one other employee (who is the major suspect appparently) has said anything incriminating lately, and I'm like, I don't know, good god....I'm only THE MOST oblivious person you're ever likely to meet. Like I'd pick up on it even if the person did say anything. Right. But yeah, so I have to write a statement about whatever I know, and I'm like wtf, I don't know anything....ack....

So yeah, meanwhile back at the ranch....

I went on a college visit yesterday and today. It was kind of boring. Kinda fun though. I dunno. All these colleges are starting to kind of blend together.....@.@ I think I'll just go be homeless and live on welfare for the rest of my life. ack...

Alrighty well that's pretty much it for now....later!

Thursday, November 3, 2005

two totally unrelated items

So yeah, okay, I haven't done a journal in a few days, and I'm bored, so here goes.....

Item one: This girl at work, Melissa, is trying to save my soul. Yep, you heard me; the poor dear is convinced that the devil has led me astray and is trying her damndest to turn me from my sinful ways; it's a futile effort, and I almost feel kind of bad for her. I've become her little "project" of sorts; every time we work together, the subject invariably comes up, and she's invited me to church with her at least a couple of times, and I want to tell her, "Don't waste your time sweetie, this is one little black sheep you're not getting back," but she just won't give up. Persistent, that one. Ah well, at least she's nice about it. She hasn't actually come right out and said, "You're going to hell," which is more than I can say for some people. Oh well, at least she doesn't listen to rap 24/7 and think she's ghetto like Josh.....ack.....

Item two:....oy....alright, break out the training bras and the Spice Girls CDs, I'm reverting to teeny-bopper-ness. Yes, that is right, I have a teacher-crush. ARGH....the word feels icky just typing it! I mean honestly, I could understand little twelve-year-old girls, if they have a hot teacher, getting a bit hot under the collar, but a SENIOR? For gods sakes, I thought we were beyond this. NO, I can't have a teacher-crush in fifth grade like NORMAL people, never had one before in my life, and that is the truth. Yes, as frosh my pallies and I commented on Wolfie's (the gym teacher's) nice legs, because he HAD nice legs, but that was not a crush, it was a passing appreciation for that particular feature. This thing, though small, is a crush. And it's not even a particularly hot teacher either.....I mean, not a BAD-looking one, but probably not what one would consider smashing good looks either. Just very nice....funny.....easy to talk to.....wait, stop stop STOP I am NOT doing this I am NOT entertaining this ridiculous notion....oh good god.....but then again, what's the harm in it, honestly---it's not like anything's ever going to come of it, I'm not that stupid....*sigh*....oh god how pathetic am I?

Monday, October 24, 2005


teehee...Saturday night was tres cool. My mummy and my little bro and I went to the Embassy Theatre (for those of you not familiar with Fort Wayne, think way cool big awesome old-fashioned theatre-type-place, balcony, chandeliers, the works) and saw the Phantom of the Opera, the silent film version from like, 1923 or something. And they had a guy playing the organ (the Embassy has a totally awesome organ) and he was really good and it was really cool. I looooooved it. And it was really good too, I mean, you'd expect since it was so old that it'd be really silly and cheesy and not scary at all, but there was a part where two guys fell down through a trap door and everybody there jumped. And when Christine pulled off the Phantom's mask, his face was really creepy; it made my hair stand on end. In short, totally awesome, if you ever get the chance to see something like that, for god's sake do it.

Okay well I must go now so I'm not late for work. Later!

Sunday, October 16, 2005


ack! mi computadora es el diablo.....but I digress....

So anyway, Yay! I've had a fun weekend. Yes, I had to work, but I got to do OTHER things too, which makes me happy, and I spent a lot of time with my mummy dearest, and we didn't argue, not one little bit---yay! And we did fun things.

Fun thing #1 - we went to the dollar theater with my little bro and saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory---trippy, lemme tell ya. But moderately entertaining. Especially when the film broke right when they were sending that one kid through the TV....hahaha.....but hey, it's a DOLLAR THEATER. I'm not complaining.

Fun thing #2 - not with my mom, but I made this DELICIOUS pasta w/chicken and broccoli and carrots and it was delectable and I was very proud.

Fun thing #3 - mummy and I went grocery shopping, which doesn't sound all that fun, but she's been all doped up on cold medicine lately, so any mundane activity has the potential of turning into hilariosity at the drop of the hat.....or in this case, a can of beans. Yeah, it was a trip.

Fun thing #4 - I have this totally awesome pair of jeans, which I have totally worn holes in because I wore them so much, so now my mummy and I have begun a project to restore them and make them beautiful and make me a new shirt too while we're at it---it's gonna be awesome when we're done.

Yeah okay, I think that's about it. I'm gonna go eat leftover pasta now---yay!

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Success is mine!

haHA! I have triumphed over the Evil English Paper of Doom! Now I can go burn my copy of The Sound and the Fury. Yay! That makes me happy. That and the fact that I just turned out a four-page paper of total bullshit that sounds believable enough to get a decent grade, in just two hours! Damn I'm good! And now I can stop worrying about it, I can turn it in tomorrow and be DONE with it and go back to my pleasant vegetative existence of not doing anything particularly arduous and meaningful. :D

Okay well I'm going to bed now to see if I can actually sleep...wish me luck!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005


Okay so I haven't gotten more than 5 hours of sleep per night in the past...wait for it....eight days, except for Saturday night. I think my average is 2-3. I'm becoming a total insomniac. And it's not even like I'm doing homework or anything, I'm just hanging around doing, well, NOTHING. Last night I went to bed at 10:30 and stared at the ceiling until almost two. Finally I got out a book and read 'til I finally fell asleep around 3:15. And it's not like I'm not tired, because I AM, I'm just not, I dunno, sleepy, I guess. Usually when this happens it's because I'm freaking out over something and my mind won't relax, but that's not it this time; I mean, I'm stressed, but I can still clear my mind and settle. I just stare blankly at the ceiling, not thinking about anything, and still not falling asleep. I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE! I feel like I'm getting sick, and I NEVER get sick---I need to sleep! Why can't I sleep?!!??!?! meh....

I'm gonna go cry now.

Tuesday, October 4, 2005

blah blah blah

Yeah okay, today's rant topic: offensive language. No, not swearing, for god's sake I do that all the time. I mean using words that are offensive to certain groups of people. Namely, the inappropriate use of the words "gay" and "retarded." Now don't get me wrong; I am totally against political correctness in all its ugly forms, but I'm talking about just basic respect for people here. Like, there's this kid I work with, and every other sentence he's like, "that's so f*cking gay" or "how retarded is that?" I've brought this to his attention, and told him a number of times that it bugs the shit out of me, but he does it anyway. Lately he's been doing it on purpose and then laughing, so I've just quit saying anything most of the time. But holy muffins, people, it's not that hard! Can't you just say "that's stupid" or "that's dumb?" What did gay people and the mentally handicapped ever do to you, huh? I told this kid at work that someday he's gonna meet a gay retarded guy who's gonna kick his ass...I would laugh....

Alright well I'm going now. Don't be stupid. Think before you talk. Later!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005


(that means shit, for all you non-spanish speakers out there)

A new best friend, probably female, though male applications will be accepted as well. Applicants must have good listening skills and be dependable, emotionally available, quirky, and possess a goofy, ridiculous, absurd, random, and still intelligent sense of humor. Non-conformity is a must; a tendency towards liberal political leanings is a big plus. Conspiracy buffs welcome. Applicants should possess a good sense of reality, but also the ability to ignore it at any given time. Hugs required. Selfish, spoiled people, those with extremely conservative views and/or evangelical tendencies, and no-touch people need not apply.

I had a sucky day Sunday. I hate my life. Somebody please remind me how to make it fun again.

Thursday, September 22, 2005


Did you ever wonder if everybody in the whole world is just a figment of your imagination? Like in The Matrix, except without the robots and the dumb ending. But it's kind of a weird idea, don't you think? I mean, could you ever really prove it's not true? Maybe you're crazy and you created this whole world out of nothing and everybody in it only exists in your mind! Okay, yeah, I've been obsessing over this way too much today. I've really nothing at all to write about, I just thought I'd share my insane thought wanderings with you all, in case you care. Whatever. I'm going now. Just remember, the complete lack of evidence is the surest sign the conspiracy is working!


Tuesday, September 20, 2005

the tres pathetique situation of my life

Yeah, totally don't speak French, so if that title's wrong, well, whatever. You'll get over it.

So anyway, I just discovered that there's this nifty little journal-y feature thing on here where you can write random shit and people can read yeah, I have nothing interesting to write about. Life is dull right now. I bet everyone says that. But it's true. The only things I have worth living for right now are.....yeah, okay, can't think of anything. How pathetic is that? It's a good thing I'm not suicidal, or I'd be in trouble. Alrighty well I'm gonna go discover the meaning of life, or something like that....if I figure anything out in that regard I'll let you all know. Later!